felt like a complete idiot @$$ for something…
felt like who cares?
felt like why bother?
felt like life’s previous experiences have totally screwed you up?
Yeah, I’m having one of those days. Someone I love did something that they shouldn’t have had to do. I logically know why they did it. And I love them more for it. But emotionally, I feel like an idiot. And thanks to previous experiences, I’m awaiting the ‘backlash’ it might not come today or tomorrow, but it will come.
And if it doesn’t, that will be a first for me.
I have more that goes with that-but this isn’t the forum for it, they are. I just need to be brave, and say what I’m really feeling. Easy to tell other’s to do, harder for me to go through with it.
I wish I could stop crying…the only good thing, crying is another form of pain (well today it is for me) and it’s letting me know I am alive, and that this is important, if I’m crying over it.
Love you! (you know who)
Huggles to my friends.